If you know, you know. A diss on behalf of those living with weight from people who pissed in their life force tank a while ago. Those bad guys that seem "so nice" to their community who don't want to see past it.

Humans, history, thoughts, actions, tangled. Intergenerational, tensions, tensions within ourselves. Though we constantly seek to find an end to meet, often there’s no connecting them. It’s natural to want that feeling of resolution, it feels like a baseline. But it’s not always there. Sometimes we have to sit in the opaque forever. We’re all in that together. You’re not alone. It’s not wrong to want to find the ends to meet. But it takes a lot of effort that may be better spent finding quiet within it where you can.

All of the different, sometimes contradictory, ways we could think or be or show up or decide. We can only move in the moment where we are, feel the overlapping currents all at once for what they are. Treat what you have in this moment with reverence.

Looking in the warm glow of bar windows. Community gathers. In a coastal town, on a summer night after a swim in the sea.

If shaking things up or prodding life for more would make it less or damage it, we’d not use it, give up everything to protect it and then feel nothing.

That easy tendency towards self protection is a tease that’s always there. But we can keep putting effort into taking down the boundaries in ourselves, or thoughts or actions. Including the seemingly human need to label everything. Forcing ourselves to live in discomfort until all of the walls are gone and we can enjoy that openness.

Why are we all looking for someone whole? We know that isn’t a thing. Everyone wants to be saved, everyone is broken, everyone’s a child. No one’s an adult, and everyone already is. Shutup with the numbers and the arms up to be picked up already. We all need a lean, that’s much easier than being fully picked up.